Hi ladies,

It has been years since I visited, but I need someone to talk to.  I am doing my best to trust God, but my pastor husband is struggling with an illness that is chronic(according to doctors).  This is going on 3 years.  I am really having a difficult time.  I feel neglected emotionally, but at the same time I feel so sorry for him having to endure this.  I have contemplated separating for a while until things get better (we have several young children).  The church is suffering financially & membership has dwindled,  the children are struggling to eat consistently,  I am unfulfilled emotionally, and he seems depressed, but won't admit it, because he is trying to get through this by faith in God.  Any advice from those who may have a spouse trying to get over illness.  This is possibly the biggest challenge of my adult life.  I am thinking about because if I were in the situation,  I would want him to be there for me. 

But,  I don't agree with some things that he is doing.  For instance,  I said,"Let's sell the house and downsize to a lower payment."  He won't agree.  Several things are behind, including the house, car, electricity, etc...

(And if you say, "Well, why can't he get a job?")  He cannot function normally on a job.  He struggles just to preach and teach on Wednesdays and Sundays.  I am at my end....HELP!!!