I am having a very hard time at work right now. I have been dealing with this situation since April, and just when I thought that things were about to get better about 2 weeks ago, they got worse. I am ready to walk out the door and never come back. Unfortunately for several reasons I cannot do that. First, I need a paycheck to pay bills. Second, I am not the type person to just walk out like that.
Please pray for me that I will be able to clearly discern God's will for me as it relates to my job. I don't know if any of you have been in a situation where so much has happened until you arrive at a place where everything seems confusing. Nothing about the situation seems clear. Even though I loved my job (a year ago), it has been my desire for some years now to be in full time ministry. Now that things have gone south with my job, I want that more than ever.
Just please pray for me. There are so many things going on in my life right now. Victories and challenges. Some days I feel like I just want to give up. You know, like I am holding on by a thread that is starting to break.
I do understand how you are feeling. Now, I'm staying home w/ the kids & I'm very active in the p.w. role, but it hasn't always been like this. For several years, I had to work outside the home, in stressful work situations, when I much preferred to be at home & in the ministry.
But the one thing that I learned from every work situation, good & bad, is that God was preparing me for future ministry opportunities. I was a social worker for special needs kids and later I was able to help a family in the church who had a special needs child (not to mention that I was able to help my own immediate family after I had 2 children born w/ cleft palates.) I was a bookkeeper & had learned an accounting program. Later I was able to use this knowledge in 2 of our churches. I was a tobacco prevention coordinator at our county health department, & a couple of months ago I was able to teach a smoking cessation class at church. I haven't even mentioned all the conflict resolution skills & people skills that I learned on the job.
So, though you are in a difficult situation, just remember that God is going to use this for a purpose. He is training you & is going to use this difficult situation to make you a better minister. He is also going to give you strength to make it through.
Thanks ladies for the encouragement. I have not been able to get online for the last week. Our server at work has been down, and I have been getting home so late that I have been going straight to bed. I do appreciate your prayers and love.
I am believeing God to sustain me and keep me focused on my goal, which is to be full time in ministry. I believe and I know that God can do it.
