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Depleted - big time


Hey everybody!  Well, I should be on top of the world right now, but I feel totally depleted and actually...down.  It's so crazy.  I just need to vent for a few minutes so here I am writing this before I go to bed.


I had a great weekend......I should be the happiest woman in the world.  I was away speaking at a conference this weekend, Thurs-Sat...and some people from church were there -- there were a lot of speakers at this Christian Ed conference, and I was one of them.  It was fantastic time and not just the services, but the spending time with people from our church, and also I got a chance to catch up with my pastor-friends here in FL.  Then we came home and today had a fantastic Service.  It was probably the most incredible service we've ever had here to date, no kidding.  Tonight we had a couples dinner - went very well. 


But here I sit, and I could just cry, but I'm too tired.  Part of it was getting up at unbelievable hours for the weekend conference.  The other part is giving so much out of myself in teaching so many times this weekend...between the conference and church -- 5 times. 


But Larry and I have had some work issues to deal with...just tiring management stuff.........the stuff - admin stuff - you hate to deal with.  And, add to all this we have a new asst. that I have been training this past week.  She's great however with training her, I have had less time to spend on my own work, which has caused me to be even more frazzed.


So, why do i feel so down?  Do you ever wonder how you can have such a fantastic weekend and then feel like you want to go crawl in a hole?  I have heard many talk about the fact that you get depressed after so much of an adreneline rush of all that activity, then you have a major downer.  I have not had a day off for a few weeks, a true day off - with ministry the past few weekends.  I wish to God I had tomorrow night after work to myself but I don't, I have a meeting. 


Do any of you ever face the rapid descent like this where after a busy, big weekend, (or after things like major outreaches, etc.) you just all of a sudden get down?  I don't even want a vacation because I would be so stressed out packing for the thing.  If I had my druthers, I would just lay in bed for 24 hours straight and zone out with movies.


Have you ever gone through this?  Is there any reason besides coming off of an adreneline rush that you suddenly feel so down?  Do you think when this happens it's a spiritual attack? 


Yesterday I talked to a PW friend who said everything is going so phenomenal in her church she "should" be happy, but instead she feels so depressed and she thinks it's just because they have been so overworked, busy and dealing with many staff issues.  These things tire you out no matter how successful the services are going. 


What do you guys think?  Pray for me today, will you?  I'd love to take off tomorrow............but i can't.  Sometimes when I get like this, I just can't stand myself.


Love you,


Deanna



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I totally get where you're coming from - after our successful kids' event, all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry.  I know it makes absolutely no sense whatsoever, but I think you're right about the adrenaline depletion.  And I think it's also a spiritual attack.


YP and I both said to each other in church yesterday morning, "We need to pull ourselves together," because neither of us really felt like being a pastor.


I think we all have times like this - I keep thinking about Elijah in regards to my current situation, and he even ran off to the desert and got scared and depressed after his incredible victory over the prophets of Baal!


You are in my prayers today!!



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Hi, Deanna:


I too will be praying for you today.  I don't remember the exact term, but the adrenaline decline / depression is a real thing.  My professor in college told me about it years ago.  Plus between exhaustion & the ever-changing hormones of womanhood, it is almost inevitable that you would start to feel "blah."  And of course, the devil knows how to fight & likes to attack when we are at our weakest.  Of course, with God, when we are weak, then HE is strong!


Do try to take a real day off this week.  You need some rest!


Love ya,


Tracy



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Thank you!  I appreciate all of your prayers.  I'm doing a little better today.  Being that...I do not have any more evenings meetings besides church tomorrow night.  Thank God...I just need a rest.  And...have a long weekend this week due to the fact of the holiday coming...we're taking Monday off.  I NEED IT!


Love to you all,


Deanna



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