I too am in a similar situation as SpiritLedWoman. I have a calling and desire to my family. I desire to be there more for my husband and 4 small children and also more active in the church. However, at this current time, I am carrying our family. I am working for health insurance and having to return to school. I feel out of the loop of my family and church.
I went back to school b/c I figure if I have to work, I want to be paid the highest I can be paid, by receiving another degree. However, this is not my calling in life. I hate what I am doing. God has made it clear to me that my calling is to serve my family more, and that whatever work I do outside of home is secondary.
Whenever I hear people talk about their purpose, I really wish I could walk in my purpose. My husband talks all the time how he is in his purpose of preaching, but I feel snubbed or cheated, because I am not able to walk in my God-given purpose. And many times I feel like that is all that God has given me...to love and serve my family. I feel that there has to be more to my life, but I really sense in my spirit that it is my primary purpose. I have been wrestling with this for years. I think, too, because taking care of family is not really glamourized in this day.
Okay, Let's take an honest look at some things here:
All women were created with the ability to nuture and mother. That is one of our purposes in life, to care and raise our children.
You have a lot to offer that is on the inside of you, but is not being demanded, or used in this SEASON. I have to agree with Pastor D that this too shall pass. What you do, is not who you are. You are always a mom, and you are always a wife, and although you are working, you still are those things. You are doing a job, but you will always be mom. Yes, right now a majority of your time is outside the home, but you are doing this to provide for the family, and that in and of itself is very praiseworthy. Right now you are walking in your purpose at work, buy doing a job.
It is very easy to feel snubbed or cheated. Am I hearing that you desire to pour yourself more into the church area as well??
Ask the Lord to reveal His truth to you in this situation...cutting aside emotions, from the season you are in, and realtiy of His purpose for your life.
