My name is Debi and I'm a pastors wife. LOL... feel like that's an addiction!
I came across this forum and could just really use the fellowship and sympathy of fellow pastor's wives. THIS IS HARD!!!
To sit here and tell you my WHOLE story would take a few days and a few barrels of coffee and vanilla creamer! But... we are planting a church... we have been at this for a number of years... going through so many steps and obstacles and financial problems and REALLY MEAN PEOPLE and really mis-guided people and every other thing you can imagine since 2010 and even before that.
We have had slam after slam and I am barely hanging on to sanity, when, after this great time of prayer this morning, get a text on FACEBOOK from the children's directors wife with a resignation letter. We're like, REALLY??? after we have poured into these people for a year and a half, they don't even have the decency to CALL us on the phone???? I am so sick of wishy washy Christians. Saying one thing and doing another. Just sick of people in general... no-one has any manners or common sense or gratitude or sense of COMMITMENT!!
I am losing hope in the mission... hope in people... and hope in myself. We have been beat down so many times, you would think we were punching bags for the enemy and his minions! I literally want to run away and find a broom tree. I have heard all the verses... I KNOW all the verses and the promises... but it doesn't change the pain and the hurt and the feelings of being one person alone on an island.
Please, PLEASE pray for me... for us. We need help... we need healing and financial healing, and peace. I honestly don't know what I need... but I do know that I need rest. Along with all the other "stuff"... I have been the sole breadwinner for 3 1/2 years and I am so weary.
I am a pastor's wife too, and I also feel the same way you do about the people at our church and it has been around for 150 years. I don't have any great advise, but I will pray for you specifically, Debi. I just found this website a few days ago and there doesn't seem to be much going on with it. Your post is from October, so I hope you don't mind me replying 2 months later. Keep yourself in your Bible, it helps me when I am searching for someone to talk to....I just usually talk to God and read his word. I do feel comfort from God when I do this. Again, I will keep you in my prayers.