I am on the local library computer, as I do not have one anymore, it had to be returned to the Ministry President. Anyway, things went from bad to worse. Donny got "baptized", again, and "rededicated his life to God", again. Convinced the girls that he has changed, had them for an overnight visit, then convinced them to stay with him. I still have Donna Joy, she is quite ill, and frankly, he never had a relationship with her, and he knows it. But I am in a great deal of pain right now, especially over the baby who has just turned 10. He got custody of her and the older two. I got custody of Donna Joy. I will fight when I get a lawyer, but I need a job first. I am divorced now, have been for nearly a month. The friend whose parent's home in which I live is an old boyfriend from high school. We have decided to persue our relationship again. We are going to a good local Southern Baptist Church together. Deanna, remember Junior? Tall, dark, and handsome. He treats me with respect and loves me in a Christian way like nobody ever has. He always did when we were together the first time, but at 17-18 years old, I was ready for marraige, he was not, so we parted ways and stayed very close friends over the last 21 years. He is still as kind now as he was then. Pray for us all, please! I love you ladies! LW
-- Edited by LW at 09:34, 2005-06-29
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...... Then they came for the Catholics, and I was a Protestant, so I never said anything. And then, they came for ME, and there was no one left to speak up. Martin Neimoller, German Pastor, WW2
Wow, so much has happened in so little time. Things have moved fast. You are right, you need a lot of healing. As wonderful as Junior is, I would just caution you to proceed slowly. You need time to process all that has happened, and go through the grieving process. Give yourself time and let the Lord do the work that must be done in your heart. We are all praying for you. Give Donna Joy a huge hug for me.
BTW, where does the pastor stand on all this? Does he believe Donny's conversion is genuine? Just curious.
It is so good to hear from you. I am glad to ehar that you are still safe, and doing better.
I would second what Deanna said. Make you sure that you are very careful. You want to allow time for God to heal you and make you whole. I think that sometimes we don't realize how deep our wounds are until someone touches them. I am probably not telling you anything that you don't already know.
Dave does think it is genuine, however, he has not seen his past conversions and baptisms, so I did caution Dave to be careful. Donny is also spreading lies about me and getting the girls to join him. Such as, it was not as bad at home as I made it out to be. And I did not try to reconcile, well, the girls are just using a skill I taught them, denying what is in front of you so that you can survive what's happening to your life. I used it for years, it's how I managed to stay with him. Convincing myself then all of America we were the perfect family. I guess I was wrong to do that for so long, now they are too. I guess only God knows how much damage has been done to them, I pray they will not make the same mistake I did.
As far as Junior goes, his real name is Mark, Deanna, check your yearbook patron ads, you'll see his name there, anyway, we did start out going pretty fast, we will try to be careful, but I have loved him since I was 15, never really got over it, as for him, he loves me too. I could not order a better husband and step-dad from book, he has such a gentle soul for such a huge man. 6'4", 275 pounds! I do need to heal, but I have been emotionally divorced from Donny for years, I had hoped this missions trip last year would help, it really didn't. I got the feeling Larry really felt something was wrong, or didn't like him or something. I just did not say anything to you. Donny can be very hard to be around, ask anyone we do business with in Greencastle. All those times I was getting hit at home over the years, I thought back to High School. Jack, and what he would say, and Junior, how he always treated me with such respect, and tenderness, not usual for a hormonal teenaged boy! I guess that's why he is the one I ran to when I left, I could always trust him, and that has not changed.
I miss my friends back in Pa., most of them have turned on me because they feel I have committed adultery, and Donny has them convinced that I lied to them about the abuse, but then, he manipulated me for years, and many friends we had along the way, so i guess I should not be shocked by this.
You should also know, Becky Price was just released from Prison a few hours ago! Praise God!! Please pray for her and her family as they readjust to her being home and with her baby Hannah.
Love you all! Thanks for talking to me, I have made no girlfriends here, please pray that God will send me some. I have joined the chior at church and I did get a job, I start next week!
Stay in touch here, miss you gals! Love, LW
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...... Then they came for the Catholics, and I was a Protestant, so I never said anything. And then, they came for ME, and there was no one left to speak up. Martin Neimoller, German Pastor, WW2
Please pray for her and her family as they readjust to her being home and with her baby Hannah.
