I am just venting... Thank you for letting me get this off of me so I can continue to wear my dashing smile....
After nineteen years of marriage, becoming a licensed minister, working my fingers to the bone in the church... After falling in love with my puppy, Destiny... After paying for college for my 24 year old step-daughter... After years of singing The Lord Will Make A Way Somehow...
I am pregnant. Yes, here I am almost 40 (okay I'm 38) and pregnant for the first time.
Here is the part that has me crazy, (no not the falsehood called "morning" sickness - when I am actually sick ALL day, and no not the craziness that has me drinking virgin strawberry daiquiris at least once a week (okay twice)....) It is the problem that everyone has started rearranging my schedule for me (actually they did this when my ministerial title changed and now they fall over themselves calling me Minister Brunswick... WHATEVER!)... And so I have had people step up to take things over for me and I was not pleased with the way it happened, but I have learned to let people bloom and blossom and I just stepped aside... WELL.... Children's Day is next Sunday and what do my wondering eyes and ears now discern - NOTHING HAS BEEN DONE! Every single one of the balls has been dropped...
So what does this mean to the woman that is now three months pregnant?? I am putting together dance steps for the dance ministry to learn their simple song on Monday, Mime movements for the mime ministry to learn on tomorrow, songs for the youth choir to put together in eight days (which they are all well able...!!!) and I am putting together a theme and a verse to be presented tonight. Now if they had left me alone this would have been done instead of them all coming to me at the last minute saying well the kids won't do this for me unless you talk to them... UGH!!! Why not confess this problem weeks ago??? Okay, I admit I was on bed rest two weeks ago and in the Bahamas the week before that, but no one has shared that they have not had rehearsals since EASTER!
YOU'RE PREGNANT?!! How long have you known? Did you just find out or you are just now telling people?
I AM SO RIDICULOUSLY, ABSOLUTELY 100% EXCITED FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SCREAMED WHEN I OPENED AND READ THIS POST.
I am so off the chain EXCITED FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is so awesome.
Are you okay? Are you happy? You didn't get into that part, just about the venting over responsibilities dropped (which I totally understand...totally) but...............
had no idea you are..................BLESSED AND HIGHLY FAVORED WITH CHILD!!!!!!!!!! OH MY WORD, I am just................overwhelemd with this new knowledge, Flow. I can't speak to the "dropped responsibilities" vent until I say, CONGRATULATIONS!!! Please, please, please keep us posted. I want to hear updates. I want photos. I want to hear the details of the process as this new life is born........do tell us, okay? (None of this coming back to the board a year from now with a 3 month picture. No, no, no. We want to be in the know as it happens, OKAY?
Now on to the vent. I understand. Gosh, btdt, for the last 21 years while raising 3 kids. It's hard especially when you are pregnant and exhausted. Let the people know, you need help. Don't be afraid to ask. I know they do value your ministry deep down inside tho they sometimes don't show it. Step up and let them know - you need them to step up to the plate and help you especially as you are now expecting.
We are here to listen, to help, to support in any way we can.
WOW!!! CONGRATS ON THE BABY! WHAT A FANTASTIC BLESSING!
as forthe dropped ball...seen it, expeiencedit and absolutely hate watching it happen and having to step in to save the day! UGH! PLease make sure to vent here. I understand the pregnancy falsehood of morning sickness! I was terribly sick with my last pregnancy....it ended with two beautiful babies.
God bless and you will be on my prayer list! melissa
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"How can I keep from Praising Your Name, How can I ever say enough, How amazing is Your Love!"
I have laughed and giggled just reading Deanna's post - I have known for a month, but I have been on and off bedrest and just got back from the Bahamas (I went on a cruise the week after I found out - and bedrest after that)... The testimony about my pregnancy is another post... When I wake up tomorrow I'll try to tell that story... I need to get a blogspot so I can tell it all....
But I am well, the baby is blessed and Pastor and I are at a WOW moment... I actually think I finally let it penetrate my mind that after 19 years the Lord has blessed it took me a month to really get the point...
Girl... congrats! I for one know about those WOW moments... I got pregnant with our Isabella four years after having a tubal ligation... God certainly has a sense of humor!!! :)
Okay - here is the testimony of what happened. My husband and I have been trying for years to conceive. I have gone through taking fertility pills at low doses and found myself with severe mood swings (normally swinging low like the song says...) but nothing ever happened. Of course we sang the God's Timing song... and the God's Will song... but secretly we were singing the WILL YOU PLEASE COME ON LORD ANTHEM!!!
Well two years ago after I was delivered from my crazy job and began to work for the state, I started researching fertility doctors again. I found this doctor who had a decent success rate and set up appointments. Unfortunately he kept being unavailable when I wanted to go and so I just decided that I would wait. Fast forward another year, on my 38th birthday I said now Lord I am not trying to tell you how to do or what to do, but I do not want to be 40 and pregant for the first time. As a matter of fact, if I am not pregnant by 39, I want you to remove the desire and I will adopt. SO I went back to see that fertility doctor. I went in and he immediately started doing diagnostic testing on me to make sure all of my parts were functional enough to get pregnant.
After three months of poking and prodding, he finally decided to put me on high dose drugs. But in order to take them I had to see him to get instructions on how to administer them. So I was supposed to go on the day I got them, but of course he did not order them when he said he would so I did not get them until after 9 p.m. Then his mother had an accident so he was out of the office. The following week I had severe cramps and called him and he said meet me at the hospital (WHERE HE WAS AT THE TIME), so I rush to the hospital and surprise, surprise, he had left... I was there within 30 minutes. He had not made the necessary steps for me to be checked by the radiology department so I was sitting in the hospital for two hours and he of course did not answer his pager or phone. Okay, so needless to say me fruit of the spirit was being eaten away... BUT I just took that as a sign that okay he is not the doctor for me. So after crossing town to see if he went (as he told his secretary) to the main office and not finding him for hours, I decided I would not call him anymore... The following he called me and said please forgive me (YES A FULL SEVEN DAYS LATER!), I really want to help you and your husband conceive this child. Please come into the office. So we go, drugs in hand to be trained on how to use them only to have to wait (for the upteenth time) for more than two hours to be seen. So when we finally get seen he does the same tests that he had done three times before and then says there is something wrong with your uterus, it appears that your lining is too thick, we can't do the fertility treatment now, I am going to have to do a D&C on you and another biopsy of your uterus and put you on birth control pills.
Now for the first time in my life I was bound and determined not to listen to my doctor. My husband was like well when do we have to do this and how long will she be on the medicine and I kept saying well let's wait. I was planning on going on a cruise and I was in no rush to go back into surgery (I had a similar biopsy the month before). So he said well let's get a pelvic ultrasound first and then we'll schedule it. But he couldn't/wouldn't do the referral. He kept saying let your primary care physician do it, of course my PCP said no he needs to do it... So again I am delayed. Okay another week goes by and I am feeling really uncomfortable. Pain in my side, headaches, nausea, basic YUCK!
So I decided to go see my PCP, who immediately listens to me and within 5 minutes said well I believe you are pregnant but the pain makes me be concerned about whether its in your tubes. So because I have been infertile forever and a day, I was like well that's probably not it.... It is probably another cyst (I have PCOS)... So he does the blood test and schedules me for a ultrasound...
The next day I was on the subway and got uncontrollably ill.... I felt like I was going to faint and everything started spinning out of control, so I hurried off the train at the first aboveground stop so I could get air and as soon as I leaned against the pole I found myself on the ground... But when I fainted I landed sitting not stretched out so nobody paid me any attention... It probably just looked like I plopped down... I called my husband who was nowhere to be found and then I got my armor bearer... She being excellent talked to me on the phone until I was well enough to gather myself and then she got me home.
Dr. K. calls me on Wednesday and says you are definitely pregnant... I like Sarah laughed.
So once I got myself together and realized he was not playing with me or my emotions, I called my husband who was at the hospital with his grandmother. So I didn't tell him because he was stressed... That evening I called him on my way home and he said he was in the office waiting for Bible Study... So I bought a ballon that said Welcome Baby! and sent it floating in his office. He looked at it, looked at me and then for about 15 minutes stared at the balloon saying nothing. Then he turned to me and said you're pregnant? I smiled and said how nice of you to notice me, yes I am pregnant... Then he went back to staring at the balloon and a few minutes later he got back to looking at me and asked again... This went on for a while... Then he asked how... Which cracked me up all the more.... Then I said it differently, I am pregnant with your baby... (NOT THAT THERE IS ANY DOUBT!!) And he said wow... then went back to staring at that doggone balloon. Then I having grown tired of the staring said well I am going home to lie down... (I had been expecting a more talkative husband but I think the poor man was in shock)... Well then I had to tell him that before he could tell anyone we had to know that the baby was fine...
The next day was the ultrasound - my husband was aggravating to the poor technician who was trying not to tell anything as her job dictates, but to hush him up she said do you see that little flicker right there - that's your baby's heartbeat. UTTER SILENCE!!!
Ever since then there has been morning (ALL DAY) sickness, bedrest, unrest and everything else that goes into being pregnant... Keep me in prayer!
WOW what a testimony! GOD is so amazing! Your husbands response is about like what my husband's was when we found out we were having twins! He kept asking for smelling salts. It was rather funny. SO happy for you!
melissa
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"How can I keep from Praising Your Name, How can I ever say enough, How amazing is Your Love!"
Oh my word! I love it. This was so entertaining/inspiring/faith building to read!!! I am just delighted for you and your hubby. What a miracle!!! God is so good.
Please, please keep us posted. I know it's going to be busy and you are dealing with a lot but at least small post to update us...we want to share your joy.
I am so happy for you. You are a spiritual mother to so many. Now God has blessed you with a natural child of your own. If anyone ever "deserved" it, you do. I am just so thrilled for you.
Congrats!!!What a testimony. God is ALL of that!!! I know you will be a wonderful mother. You have offered lots of great advice to me over the years, so I know you will be great with your own natural child(or children).
I will pray for you and your dh, b/c I know morning sickness is no joke. It is not a nice feeling.
Congratulations!! Fun testimony and hope your morning sickness doesnt last long...but....it always helped my feelings to know that was a GOOD sign (to have morning sickness) so....CONGRATLATIONS!!!
