Most of you do not know me very well yet, but I'm laying my heart out here because I have nowhere else to lay it (except before the Lord of course).
I am single, trying to start a brand new church. I have one single woman friend here. She is saved, but her faith is weak and she tends toward a very negative attitude very quickly. I am also having to work a full-time secular job to support myself. I currently receive no benefits from the church (it's just too small right now). My family (sister) does not support me in the ministry. I am great friends with a Christian couple, but the husband calls me WAY more than he should. (another prayer request altogether).
Most coming into the church are the unsaved, or baby Christians. This is a blessing and a great opportunity for me to teach and love and disciple them. But I have no prayer partner here. No mature Christian brother or sister to annoint me and pray over me when I need it.
I love my solitude - I have an advantage there regarding prayer and study time. But I come home from work exhausted, and have all the church work on me by myself. I so look forward to the day the church can support me so I can devote all of time for them.
Scoffers discourage me. After they get over my being a woman, they then decide that I can't do this because I am single. Wasn't Paul single? Mary & Martha single? I don't remember a wedding ceremony for Mary Magdalene.
I feel so "busy", and yet so isolated. I suppose my prayer request is for a Spirit-filled woman prayer partner. Perhaps some mature Christians to join the church (I could use the help).
We desperately need a worship leader - one who can volunteer, and truly lead in heart-felt worship.
I have not prayed for a husband. I read the 7th chapter of 1st Corinthians and feel that I'm just fine the way I am (single). Christ is my husband, yadda yadda yadda. Do I have it all wrong? Am I working against God's will for selfish independence?
Perhaps I need a "ministry partner". More help in the church. Or (gasp) a MAN?
That's my whine for this afternoon. Thanks for letting me vent.
In Christ, Robin
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Rejoicing in HOPE, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer (Romans 12:12)
I most definately feel like you should be able to whine, cry, scream and rant on her as much as you needed. I think we all need to do that sometimes! Well in some case alot! I will be praying for someone to or more mature Christians to join your church. May God bless you as you take this leap and trust Him for His provision for a worship leader, and other leaders to take up some of the slack you are handling alone. I also pray God will bring a prayer partner into your life that can and will uphold you constantly in prayer! God bless melissa
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"How can I keep from Praising Your Name, How can I ever say enough, How amazing is Your Love!"
